Growing Up

I can't believe I am actually going to say this, but ...

I am--for the first time, to my knowledge--officially tired of school.

I have been in school for the last 19 of my 23 years. That's a lot of school. Practically 2 decades. I'm not saying I never whined or complained about reading, writing, or arithmetic in those 19 years... but I don't remember ever actually wishing that I could leave the full-time work of becoming educated.

Too bad I have 3 years yet ahead...

3 years. That's not so long, is it? And I will also readily acknowledge that these feelings may wander off in a day or two. Let's hope for that.

I think a large part of this sudden disinterest in school are the changes that occur at my age--mainly, the fact that the majority of my peers have "finished" school and are off to different lives. They're getting married, starting families, beginning 9-5 jobs with leisurely weekends--entering an entirely different type of life while I continue with the same old routine. In addition to this, many of my colleagues have already experienced that sort of adventure and are now returning to academia... and I can't help but wonder whether or not I would be renewed in my love of learning had I taken a break. Not that these said colleagues give any indication that this would be the case.

Really, I just want my motivation back.